If I understand the Integral Assessment right, we were to relax our body and mind and once we felt truly relax we were to ask the questions: What aspect of my life psychospiritual, interpersonal, biological, or worldly is the source of my difficulty and suffering? What development is essential for me right now? What is my current level of development and what can I am for? What areas in my life are ready for development? And many other questions.
I really didn’t know what to expect going into the exercise, but I really thought it would open my awareness to the changes that have come about in my day-to-day life since meditating. But rather, I had the most amazing experience. I had been listing to a guided meditation (link provided below) were a few minutes into the lady says “ask any question you may have now,” so I figured this was a great prompted for this exercise.
My experience
I was listening to the guided meditation and it came to the part where I ask the question and I started to think of the first question but my body began to tingle and feel numb. Of course that is where my attention was focused. This feeling intensified into a calming peaceful vibration. At first I was scared because I didn’t know what was happening but I didn’t fight it. I heard a voice say “welcome, go ahead and ask your questions now.” So I ask, getting every question answered as if I was sitting down talking to another being. I asked the question “what areas in my life need developing?” and I didn’t get a response. I thought “I feel like I am loosing the connection. “ I want to describe this feeling like slipping from grasp of a friend who is trying to save you, but instead you fall in slow motion. No matter how much you yell for the friend to help you they cannot.
So now I am lying in bed rethinking the whole experience in awe of what just happened. I keep thinking of when body was tingling and I was scared even though it was peaceful. It dawned on me that the area I need to develop is trusting and allowing, not to fight what I don’t know or understand.
Has this happened to any of you?
What a wonderful experience ;)
ReplyDeleteYes I have these experiences when I meditate. For me when this first happened to me I was a little scared also as I was experiencing tingles and called my medium friend for answers. He assured me it was energy coming in, I was switched on and absorbing the flow of energy. However, he told me to also protect myself with a circle of white light too and not to get too carried away as I would find it hard to stay grounded.
That was a year ago and I practice deep meditation all the time, a truly, life fulfilling amazing experience. I also ask questions and I can relate to when you said it feels like you are yelling for an answer but there is not one. This is when you just have to let your mind relax and go with the flow and not force an answer, and not to feel disappointed if you get nothing.
A question? Is there there any part of your life that is a source of difficulty or suffering ? Mine is my patience, which I am learning to control :)
It was great reading your blog this week, post again if you have any other experiences ;)
I am glad you had a good experience with this all. I'm just not finding it. I do realize that I have work to do spiritually and wordly but not quite sure that I want to work on them right now to be honest. I feel like I have to get biological and interpersonal down first before I move onto anything else. I have a hard time meditating and I'm glad it worked for you. I tend to be my calmest when I exercise. This is the time where I can clear my mind and relax. I enjoyed reading your blog.
ReplyDeleteHi Ronna,
ReplyDeleteI love the part about learning to trust yourself more. I think that's a very important piece to living an integral life. Sounds like a cognitive line of practice. Any ideas on where you would start?